Ten years is a long time.
Ten years is almost three times as long as my youngest cousin has been alive. It's how long it takes light from
the closest star in the constellation Andromeda to reach Earth. It's longer than many marriages last these days. Ten years is a long time.
It's not long enough that this anniversary hurts any less.
Ten years ago today, two young men killed fourteen people and injured twenty-three more in Columbine High School before killing themselves. These are about the only facts everybody can agree upon.
Ten years ago, I was in a car on the way back to school from a field trip when I heard on the radio that shots had been fired at Columbine High School.
Ten years ago, one of my teachers (the only person who believed I was being bullied at the time) didn't let me or any other student out of her sight until our parents showed up to collect us.
Ten years ago, my parents asked if I was OK, and all I felt was anger because why the hell didn't they think to ask it
before? Why, when I told them before that no, I was emphatically
not OK, did they not believe me? How could they expect an honest answer from me now?
Nine years and fifty-one weeks ago, my French teacher stepped out of the classroom for a few minutes and my classmates took the opportunity to chase me around and call me a freak. This was never a matter of simple teasing, but systematic abuse. Parents and teachers tell kids that "other kids will do that" (they will) and that they need to grow thick skins, but they don't actually allow kids to
grow them. Nor, I think, do they grasp the full import of what bullying can do to a person. (You wouldn't tell a person who's been so abused as to lose function and sense of self to "snap out of it." And if you would, you're an idiot and I don't want to know you.)
Nine and a half years ago, the boys in my class were made to sit through a lecture on sexual harassment (yes, it happened. Yes, we were in eighth grade). Guess what got worse because the boys resented being called out?
Nine years and three months ago, I began to participate in bullying the one kid less "with it" than I was. If I had a time machine, that's what I would change. (Kevin had a shirt with the saying on my icon. I'm wearing this icon for him. Kevin C. from Denver, if you're reading this, I'm terribly, terribly sorry and I hope you can forgive me.)
I'm not going to talk here about how video games or music or trenchcoats or guns or metal detectors did or didn't cause this, I promise.
What I will say -- and what I believe is the ultimate cause of not only most school shootings, but also the current economic crisis -- is that we live in a society that has divorced itself from logical consequences.
Watch what happens next time a popular group coerces an unpopular kid into doing something against the rules with them. When they get caught, it's the unpopular kid who gets the brunt of the punishment, regardless of who actually did what. The main group gets off with a warning because there's a game on Friday. The loner gets the full punishment, even if the group had been setting him up to begin with.
Watch what happens the next time somebody hits a bully back. You know when someone would try to talk to you in class, and you'd ignore them until you couldn't anymore and turned back to tell them to shut up? You know how
you were always the one who got caught and how unfair that was? Now imagine getting suspended or even expelled for punching the face of the person who's pinning him by the neck against a row of lockers. This is, incidentally, the legacy of the "zero-tolerance" laws that claim to help the bullied -- they make it impossible for people to defend themselves.
School administrators can't be bothered to set consequences that actually fit offenses, so they shield themselves with rigid rules that actually
causes more of the tension that it's supposed to alleviate.
You know who has it right?
South Park. There's an episode called "
Breast Cancer Show Ever" where Cartman singles out Wendy to pick on, about a cause (breast cancer research) that's highly important to her. She tells him she's going to kick his ass, and Cartman comes crying to Wendy's parents about how mean she is to him. Wendy's parents take his side and forbid her to fight, and Wendy promises not to. Later, Principal Victoria calls Wendy into her office and talks about how she's a breast cancer survivor herself and that cancer is "pure evil," a "fat little lump" that cannot be reasoned with and must be fought before it takes everything.
Wendy realizes Victoria's not just talking about cancer, and she kicks Cartman's ass in what is quite possibly the best fight between fourth graders I've ever seen.
And you know what?
Nobody's going to screw with Wendy lightly after that.
In hockey, a player who sets out only to instigate a fight gets a longer penalty than a player who fights back. Surely hockey isn't the only place where that happens anymore?
Instead of addressing
any root cause of
anything, we as a society have our heads so far up our asses as to think that sensitivity training in schools does anything good or useful. We can't even see the consequences of them. (Hint: Kids are smarter than you think. They'll not listen to the seminars, but they'll resent having to go to them and they'll lash out more against the people they bully.)
But hey, we have metal detectors and transparent backpacks, and kids who wear too much black are publicly singled out for counseling, so we're safe, right? This could never happen again.
Except it will.